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Thursday, July 19, 2007

5, 10, 4

These are random numbers that came to me this past week: 5 on Tuesday, 10 on Wednesday and 4 on Thursday. But they vary day-to-day, week-to-week.

I have a weird habit that borders being OCD. Well, I don't know if it falls into the OCD category, but it certainly is in some psychological weirdness category. Let me clarify that I'm not saying if your OCD you're weird, but if you are, you gotta agree that some of the OCD characteristics are, well, just weird.

So what do I do with these random numbers? I count them. Actually I count TO them. Usually, it happens once I get to work. At least, that's when I notice it. I get out of my car, and suddenly, without really _thinking_ actively about it, I start counting my steps before I get to the door. But I don't count my actual number of steps, I count to a random number.

So on Tuesday, I did this all the way to my office:

"One, two, three, four, five, One, two, three, four, five, One, ..., Five"

On Wednesday, it was:
"One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, One, ..., Ten"

And today:
"One, two, three, four, One, ..., four"

I have no earthly idea why I do that, but I do. I _think_ I can stop, but I don't because I think, what am I hurting by doing that?

But I don't do that everywhere. Like the number of steps in stairways. I actually DO count those.

I know that there are 80 steps from the bottom floor to the floor in which my office is located.

I also know that both sets of my stairways in my home have 14 steps.

And the steps from the outside of my building to the bottom of the hill equal 49.

The steps from the main floor to the first level basement of my office building, 11. Everything else is 10 to a landing, except this one.

I don't think I'm OCD because I don't really care if I end up losing count and actually come up short/more on the number. I can still get through my day. (Of course, I'm OCD-ignorant, so I'm going by what I have heard OCD is for some folks.)

I do, however, try to challenge myself and actually count the steps AND figure out the number remaining at the same time. For instance, if I am on step 71 going towards my office, I recite the number nine, (meaning nine remaining steps) while I count my steps. Odd, but it keeps my brain active (or so I think). That's when I usually lose count since I'm not quite that good at it yet...

But, not to sell myself short, I don't miscount and subtract too many times. I am PRETTY DARN GOOD at it, just not at 100%.

What do you think? Is this OCD or just some other odd neurotic disorder?

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